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Whatever was supposed to be there in your entry didn't make it. All that was there was the little box with the red X in it. Sorry. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-21 00:45:28

TeLL Me THaT YouR aLRiGHT

lol thanks

well, my hair is like, wavy and out of control

it has no "definate" style i guess lol

and the top layer frizzes after i shower

but those pics were taken a long time ago

look at my recent ones

<3 michelle

[MBlem003]
2008-03-20 21:43:33

F*CK all this anorexic sh*t!!!! i too have been counting calories and working out. i cant say it is because all of the people on here....i just saw my pictures from new years and thought WOW!!!  no more.  so my birthday (the big 3-0) is April 11.  my goal was 1 chin by my b-day!!  :)  i am getting there. i have lost 9 pounds since February or so, I'm OK with that.  i dont have much to lose but trying to stay focused is hard.  i know what you mean about not eating.  i did become so obsessed that i was looking at every little calorie i ate.  like yesterday i went until 7 on only 250 calories...that is not good.  i was PHYSICALLY sick.  i felt like i was going to puke but i dont think anything would have come up.  but on the flip side i can see where some could get in trouble.  i have REALLY been cutting back and i hurt and im hungry, BUT i get on the scale and i see the weight come off.  so at that point it seems worth it.  so you just have to know your body know what you can and cant handle.  not eating is not good....eating and puking is even worse.  just cut back.  another helpful hint....gum.  i chew the crap out of gum.  it helps me with my food cravings.  anyway, i hope you are not going down the wrong path.  just lose weight the smart way.  [princess1996] 2008-03-20 08:41:32

F*CK all this anorexic sh*t!!!! This is not normal, even though on here you can't look at the front page without seeing at least one entry about it. Sure women are going to think about the way they look, especially if they have low self-esteem. If you do want to get toned, please don't do it this way. There are tons of ways to achieve it the safe way.[softballprincess] 2008-03-19 14:34:13

the worst part

Cool poem, or is it a song? Take care, talk to you later.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-19 00:04:12

Stolen from Castle *Sorta* i liked this entry!! it's so funny to see what people like and dislike and their taste in many things!!! :)-[likeaclown] 2008-03-18 08:03:02

random

Anna,

I know it's not you.......lol..talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-07 16:38:48

random

Anna,

Thank you for your comment. Is this a good enough smile?Very Happy lol. Take care and talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-07 12:38:47

random

Anna,

I wish you the best of luck ending it with C and starting a new relationship with Z. Thank you for your comment and your offer to help, I'll probably take you up on it someday. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-07 12:01:50

Before she laid her head to cry I sang a lullaby

Anna,

I've already done everything that can be done, letters, cards and e-mails. I even begged her not to do this. I've tried everything. If California wasn't so far away, I'd tell her this in person. Thanks for the comment and the concern. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-07 11:33:42

Before she laid her head to cry I sang a lullaby

I'm glad I could bring some humor into your life.....lol. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-06 10:01:05

Before she laid her head to cry I sang a lullaby

Anna, I have to admit, you lost me on the shower comment. did I say something about showers?Confused Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-05 15:51:55

Before she laid her head to cry I sang a lullaby

Anna,

Have fun and be careful tonight, talk to you later.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-05 15:49:33

Before she laid her head to cry I sang a lullaby

Anna,

Thanks for the comment. I wish I could say that I listened to the song, but the library computer wouldn't let me, some kind of stupid parental control. I'm looking forward to e-mailing and chatting with you. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-05 13:37:02

I went for a ten mile run. and got lost.

Anna,

If you want to talk to me,my MSN messenger address is on my profile. Take care.

 Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-04 22:33:05

I went for a ten mile run. and got lost.

Anna,

Your diary wasn't one of the ones that were set to private. As for advice, your situation is similar to mine so I'm not sure what advice I can give. I don't have a clue as to what I should do next in my life. Hopefully by venting, you feel better. Even without advice, I am always your friend. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-04 20:02:13

I went for a ten mile run. and got lost. My fam life is such a mess now, and I don't know if it will get better. At end I will cry, but will I go on with my life. I pray that all will be ok for you. When are we going to stop running, and face our problems. I  must dance and face the music.Crying or Very sad[ANONYMOUSAnonymous] 2008-03-04 16:44:09

I lean against the wind,pretending I am weightless I used to be obssesed with this song <3[ColleenIsAdream] 2008-03-03 20:44:03

Weekend Recap

Anna,

Thanks for your comment, writing in MDD helps me when I get comments and feedback from all of my friends on here. Talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-03 12:53:31

Weekend Recap

Hello Anna,

Don't feel silly,I understand about not wanting to put too much personal info online. I haven't seen Stalker Girl in 3 or 4 days, Thank God. I'm avoiding places where she hangs out. It sucks that I have to limit my activities but it's better than adding fuel to her fire. Take care and talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-03 11:46:29

Weekend Recap

Sounds like you had a fun(wild?)weekend............lol. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-03-03 11:16:51

underwhere>? i dont know if he just kissed her. thats what he told me but i want to find out if there was more. but since it was 2 yrs ago, should i just let it go?[Jilly728] 2008-03-01 13:37:42

underwhere>? Thanks ![Jennifah] 2008-02-29 15:48:56

underwhere>?

I got away from her. Thank God she doesn't know where the library is........lol.Talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 15:29:45

underwhere>? Thanks, Love.[silverused4] 2008-02-29 14:54:27

underwhere>?

No I didn't try to blow-dry it.
I don't think it'll work because I let it air out for over 24 hours already.
I'll try to blow dry it tonight after trade though...
Never know...I could gain a miracle.

[silverused4]
2008-02-29 14:15:26

underwhere>? Thanks for the comment, it cheered me up.Mr. Green I'll try to go talk to him....but...we'll see....[YoungToday] 2008-02-29 14:02:17

underwhere>? No...the toilet wasn't flushed yet haha. I just stood up from peeing and it fell out of my jacket pocket when I bent down to pull up my damn pants! Haha.[silverused4] 2008-02-29 13:49:27

underwhere>?

I'm not ignoring you or being rude, I just need to get away from here. She's starting to try to provoke me. This sucks that I can't be somewhere without her trying to start sh*t. Talk to you soon.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:48:59

underwhere>?

Good choice of songs then. Take care

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:39:22

underwhere>?

She is annoying, that's why I'm going elsewhere to find a computer. Thank you for telling me about the blank comment. i'm not going to bed yet, not for several hours actually It's only 2:15 pm here. Take care and I'll talk to you later.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:36:00

I lean against the wind,pretending I am weightless

Cool poem....................talk to you later.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:33:58

underwhere>? Huh what?[GhostWalker] 2008-02-29 13:20:46

underwhere>?

I'm not going to bed early, I was up until 2 am last night. It seems like all the entries are posted in Greenwich mean time, which I forgot if it's behind us or ahead of us. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:17:10

underwhere>? [GhostWalker] 2008-02-29 13:16:37

underwhere>?

Have a good weekend. I don't know what to say except that I don't clean my underwear drawer and I don't buy mine at Victoria's Secret........lol. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-29 13:00:56

underwhere>? I'm not "late" yet. And tests don't show up until after a month, right?? We had unprotected sex a week ago...so I have to wait for a few weeks first. Don't I?[silverused4] 2008-02-29 12:07:12

underwhere>?

thanks,

sometimes i think i can get passed it and other days i think im going to lose it. im in so much pain over this and i have never been in such a dark place. either i break up with him or i stay with him and drop it. he has been able to drop the situation with me( i cheated as well before he did)

this is devistating.

[Jilly728]
2008-02-29 12:06:30

underwhere>?

yes, he just kissed her...buyt HEAVLY made out....they made out in his car....he touched her boob over her shirt....it was pretty much 8th grade making out...nuthing beyond that. everyone keeps telling me id be weird to contact her after 2 yrs. i didnt want to fight with her...jyst find out every little detail.

and im upset. if ur upset still after 3 yrs, then im worried ill be the same. you see, i cheated on him first and i HATED myself for it. thats why he did what he did....he was pissed and didnt care. i feel so bad right now.

[Jilly728]
2008-02-29 11:19:58

underwhere>?

hey thanks!

sorry to ask this.....but did ur boyfriend have sex with someone esle?

is that why is was so hard for you?

[Jilly728]
2008-02-29 11:16:02

WiLd oNiOn tonite!!

really? and no he has not acted shady.....

So it would be dumb to contact her after two yrs...i guess im obsessed with knowing every little detail. does that matter?

[Jilly728]
2008-02-29 10:25:59

WiLd oNiOn tonite!! yeah I'm kind of scared to do my tax returns, I'm afraid of owing, I probably won't but if I do, I'm going to be screwed. good luck.[ShamelessPain] 2008-02-29 09:40:00

WiLd oNiOn tonite!! the wild onion...lol sounds like a fun bar. Have fun!
[Wasting Away]
2008-02-29 08:45:43

shimmy shimmy shimmy till the break of dawn!!! you sound to happy./ That's a good thingMr. Green[eagle] 2008-02-27 22:29:56

shimmy shimmy shimmy till the break of dawn!!!

Thank you for your comment, your welcome also. I'm sorry things didn't work out with C the way you wanted too. Take  care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-27 12:57:56

shimmy shimmy shimmy till the break of dawn!!! you guys sound like you are so incredible together!!! having someone that is your best friend will eventually turn into what you both want it to :D[likeaclown] 2008-02-27 11:52:37

***You can have the best of me***

I hope you have a nice time. Enjoy yourself.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-26 14:48:40

YOU KNOW WHAT?!!!???!!???!??! gah! i hate when that happens. when you love someone but you're not IN love with them. and then it's just hard to let someone down like that when you know that they are completely IN love with you. but you don't love them in that way. but you would still do anything for them. that really sucks. well, i hope everything works out with you and C.[ladonnamarie07] 2008-02-26 13:30:36

YOU KNOW WHAT?!!!???!!???!??! sounds hard.......i don't know what to say....going through the same thing here....just he's my husband, i'm his wife, and she's his girlfriend kind of thing you know...[YoungToday] 2008-02-26 12:22:32

YOU KNOW WHAT?!!!???!!???!??! sounds like a sticky situation.[ShamelessPain] 2008-02-26 11:06:41

YOU KNOW WHAT?!!!???!!???!??!

 muchas gracias mi amiga!!!

[Blokesphere]
2008-02-26 09:28:54

Guitar Blues...wooestomeee yea they are pretty. i wish that i could be ANTM lol...Cool[anglekisses123] 2008-02-23 10:54:51

Guitar Blues...wooestomeee

runner,

I am just some guy, nothing special. I'm 38, with gray hair and a short memory.................lol

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-22 18:22:02

It had to happen, I wont live a lie

You're welcome, I enjoy being a help whenever I can. Take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-22 18:14:21

Guitar Blues...wooestomeee

It sounds like he's still very much in love with you, even without the gift of the guitar. Why can't he wait for you? Take care and talk to you later.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-22 18:08:44

It had to happen, I wont live a lie

thank you Smile
you're a good person

all the best,
lauren

[xchillistormx]
2008-02-22 16:12:39

It had to happen, I wont live a lie

yea i like that show.

[anglekisses123]
2008-02-22 15:19:26

It had to happen, I wont live a lie

I told them on Tues day.My mom freaked more then my dad did,but ill probably write an entry about it later!

Veroni

[AddictedtoV]
2008-02-22 07:59:30

It had to happen, I wont live a lie

I'm sorry you're going through some rough times, relationshipwise. It will get better. You feel like you made a mistake because you're second guessing yourself. If it was meant to be, it will. Good luck and take care.

Chad

[GhostWalker]
2008-02-21 20:45:41

email- HELP PLEASE!!! well whose kw?[outcast12345] 2008-02-21 14:49:39

email- HELP PLEASE!!! who does your heart truely go to?? [likeaclown] 2008-02-20 18:00:41

email- HELP PLEASE!!! I think n ur heart u kno who is right for you and even thought u have a history wit *C* mayb it's time to let go, *Z* seems lyke a cool guy *C* too but if *C* is control*n and Jealous tha's not cool and u should jus chill wit *Z*...
**Lady LucK **[ladyromeo34]
2008-02-20 17:24:55

email- HELP PLEASE!!! i think Z is the best choice[outcast12345] 2008-02-20 16:06:42

GIVE ME SOMETHIING TO BREAK!!!!!!! thank you for your comment! as far as having him as a roommate it would be way to tempting (and it does always lead there!!) so i would suggest not going that route. maybe if his best friend moved in~ i could see that b/c then you could still spend a lot of time with him, but feel no quick emotions towards him at any given time (like late at night when your lonely!) [likeaclown] 2008-02-19 09:47:07

Yeah, So? Maybe he lied to you so he could keep it for himself?[Scream] 2008-02-18 15:22:41

Yeah, So? I feel so lazy today!![ANONYMOUSAnonymous] 2008-02-18 12:24:37

Yeah, So? My apt was roobed in New years day 2007-midnight--by someone who lived at my apt who later was on drugs. I did not know that. When I came from a trip, everything was gone.. They stole my comp, and other things. I was stupid and is learning. I am sorry! Did you go to the police? Report it, incase they use your information.[ANONYMOUSAnonymous] 2008-02-18 10:17:20

Yeah, So? How did you lose those important things? Did you go some place and dropped them by incident?
Back track.[Scream]
2008-02-18 10:04:46

v-day sucks

move in with c

tommorrow

[Close To Gone]
2008-02-14 02:04:41

First Entry!!! wow. drama! drama! drama! i guess it still doesn't end after high school huh? i just graduated last year so...yeah. but i hope it all gets worked out. thanks for welcoming me to MDD.[ladonnamarie07] 2008-02-13 15:52:33

A DREAM IS A WISH, YOUR HEART MAKES

Don't worry i will!

Veroni

[AddictedtoV]
2008-02-13 13:36:10

A DREAM IS A WISH, YOUR HEART MAKES lol awesome!!!
Omg i think the same..they seem so dumb...
lmao I love christy jo like shes hilarious with her emotional rollercoaster..
if she was gone id be sad.
lol.
[Cas2191]
2008-02-13 13:02:51

A DREAM IS A WISH, YOUR HEART MAKES

Sure you can add me,I'll add you too!

veroni

[AddictedtoV]
2008-02-13 11:38:18

v-day sucks

Thanks..Im really scared to tell them though!

Veroni

[AddictedtoV]
2008-02-13 10:16:31

v-day sucks

YES I DO!!!!!

Life would be so much better!!!

[inkdancer]
2008-02-13 10:12:45

v-day sucks Yeah you can add me as a fav. I've been writing on this website forever, but I never really talk to people.
But yeahh. I like alot of music too.
[xmyselfx]
2008-02-13 08:50:03

First Entry!!! I wouldnt be any good with relashionship advise because i havnt had any luck in that, sorry.

Welcome to MDD by the way.[MuerteHermosa]
2008-02-09 23:27:13


 
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